Oh... my... fucking Goddess...

... I've honestly started feeling like a lot of the people here probably don't care for me... because that's what always goes through my mind... I always feel like people detest me or don't care for me or simply don't give a damn...

... I know you wrote that basically, exactly one day ago... and it's taken me this long...

I've been up for two days... like I am most of the time... I've barely eaten or drank... as usual... and I didn't take my meds either of these days, and I don't even know for sure when I last did...

... I don't take care of myself as I should. That's an understatement... if I did, I know I'd be much more successful, and focused, and driven... and I'm trying... but that's probably why my posts in the past several hours have been as idiotic as they were... I'm running on empty...

... but.

Reading that... that SERIOUSLY just made me feel a helluva lot better. THANK YOU. First of all, I rarely meet someone that loves The Craft as much as I do. The first time I watched it, it was with my mom, and we both fell in love with Nancy... and the film itself.

... you seem so incredible... your writing, your personality, your interests... you truly do remind me of my friend Britanny... or, I suppose that would be "ex" friend, thanks to my attitude... which only gets worse when I neglect myself as I have been...

iAm glad to be here. And I'm glad you, and people like you, are here... it reminds me of the days when I first got into e-fedding,some thirteen years ago... the last e-fed I was in, two years ago, it had been a year since I'd written... after the break-up... it just didn't seem right...

... this place... it seems right. I kept telling myself I would never e-fed again... I even thought I'd never write again...

... but then... I found this place. It's truly becoming like a second home. I needed to get away from Facebook, after it had been sucking me into this spiral of negativity...

... I needed this place.

I just need to start taking care of myself. Gain some more focus and a LOT more patience...

... and I truly Believe magic is going to happen.

About to finally work on three things... a pm concerning a match idea... a reply to Minxxy's open rp...

... and an invitation. To you.

Hope your day has been beautiful, hun.

<3

~ $



"...and i'm on my way to Believing..."